Waiting Stretches the Soul

Waiting is not easy. I have some things I’m waiting on in my life—relationally and vocationally. I get impatient and I sometimes get unproductive. I realize that when I’m in a “groove,” I am so much more productive. I see opportunities and I’m busy. But when I’m in a waiting place, time seems to move more slowly and it can be excruciating.

Don’t get me wrong:  I am a big fan of having extra time to rest and gain perspective. But, when I get too much time on my hands, I can easily drive myself bananas. I get restless. I pace the floor. I’m constantly looking for something outside of me to help.

Why does productivity and busyness sometimes feel so necessary? When we are young, we play and get lost in the moment. When we become adults, our identity gets so tied up in what we have accomplished. I’m a culprit in this, too. I sometimes measure myself and compare myself with others who seem to have more of something that I want.

I am seeking to unravel my identity away from what I do and to be ok with myself exactly as I am and apart from what I have accomplished. This is a difficult task and not one that is easily done. Yet, it’s a very valuable exercise from time to time. And, this soul work can be great preparation for the changes that may be just around the corner.

-Shelley Pearson